my story and pictures
I had you. I kept you a secret. I counted and exercised and starved. I withered away. I lost myself. I became depressed. I was sick. I cried for help. I struggled to swallow. I slowly gained. Here I am.
There’s not a day I don’t miss you. That I don’t miss my body . And that I don’t miss my ability to get away. But then I remember those glimpses of brightness, of being able to not constantly think of food. And I remember I can do this , we will get through this, eventually we can be okay
height: 5’7 lw:104 cw:118 gw:120
summer before high school before it began
then high school started and life sucked
i started counting to gain control
5’7 120
5’8 115
5’8 110
5’8 107
then it was summer 5’8 104
and then i was locked up in therapy land
two week therapy. summer with parents. meals with parents. no splenda. no walking. no diet coke. carb, protein, veggie, dairy per meal. 2 snacks a day
5’8 110-112
fat goal weight 120
such food started fucking me over
127-129
highest weight 134
currently 129-131
FATTASS LOSING WEIGHT
